{"Some birds are not meant to be caged, that's all. Their feathers are too bright, their songs too sweet and wild.” }
- Stephen King, Rita Hayworth and Shawshank, Redemption: A Story from Different Seasons
Messages From Her - Sabrina Claudio || Elsewhere - Bethany Joy Lenz || Runaway - AURORA || My Love - Star Cast ft. Jude Demorest
|Full Name|
Amelia Deborah Boudreaux
|Nickname|
Lia or Melia {Most common; preferred with the former being her absolute favorite} || Barbie or Barbie Doll {Mostly mocking, occasionally teasing; tolerates, but barely}
|Birth Date|
August 22, 1996
|Age|
24
|Ethnicity|
French-Cajun || Welsh || Swedish || English || Spanish
|Occupation|
"If you would have told the Amelia from seven years ago that she'd become a travel vlogger, she would laugh in your face. I guess life really does happen. I will say that the majority of my travels, no matter how much people focus on the scenery and my bikini pics, are actually about the music scenes. I've always loved music and there wasn't a part of my life I ever envisioned having it. I haven't really sang in six years myself, but I have some friends in the underground scene and even back in California, so I'll work on tracks from home and even step in for my Spain friends during shifts. That last part is rare now since...well, I need a babysitter most days. I do what I can to provide for me and my child."
Travel Vlogger || Underground Producer || Part-time DJ
|Sexuality|
Heterosexual
|Marital Status|
"Not many people can say they got away with not telling their family they had a baby. I just know the first thing my mama's gonna ask is if I even attempted to get married. And I'm pretty sure she wouldn't believe me if I said yes."
Single
Amelia Deborah Boudreaux
|Nickname|
Lia or Melia {Most common; preferred with the former being her absolute favorite} || Barbie or Barbie Doll {Mostly mocking, occasionally teasing; tolerates, but barely}
|Birth Date|
August 22, 1996
|Age|
24
|Ethnicity|
French-Cajun || Welsh || Swedish || English || Spanish
|Occupation|
"If you would have told the Amelia from seven years ago that she'd become a travel vlogger, she would laugh in your face. I guess life really does happen. I will say that the majority of my travels, no matter how much people focus on the scenery and my bikini pics, are actually about the music scenes. I've always loved music and there wasn't a part of my life I ever envisioned having it. I haven't really sang in six years myself, but I have some friends in the underground scene and even back in California, so I'll work on tracks from home and even step in for my Spain friends during shifts. That last part is rare now since...well, I need a babysitter most days. I do what I can to provide for me and my child."
Travel Vlogger || Underground Producer || Part-time DJ
|Sexuality|
Heterosexual
|Marital Status|
"Not many people can say they got away with not telling their family they had a baby. I just know the first thing my mama's gonna ask is if I even attempted to get married. And I'm pretty sure she wouldn't believe me if I said yes."
Single
{“One of the greatest regrets in life is being what others would want you to be, rather than being yourself.” }
- Shannon L. Alder
|Quirks & Habits|
Has anembarrassing habit of snorting a little when she's in the middle of a good giggle or laugh ▪ Flinches and stays tense for a few seconds longer than normal when she doesn't see someone out of her periphery before they touch her; scares quite easily ▪ Very expressive; cannot keep her emotions off her face to save her life ▪ Even when her hair is cut shorter, Amelia can't stop herself from wearing a tie on her left wrist, even if it's below a bracelet. She likes plucking at it, especially when she's aggravated or getting bored. ▪ Always has her digital camera on her person at all times ▪ When writing or listening to music, even on a low setting, she has to be physically touched to be drawn back to the present
|Talents(T) | Strengths(ST) | Skills(SK) |
A social butterfly at heart and a performer in her own right, even when she doesn't think so, Amelia knows how to connect with people and make new friends, but her greatest skill is connecting with other artists and making them feel seen and heard because she technically does see them and hear their sound. She's really good at being able to pluck the talent out of them and pick really good artists to represent a scene or label, which was why she was kept on when she interned for a big label and eventually worked for them full time. She knows what makes an artist sound their absolute best and she knows how to mix sounds to better create audio experiences, as well as write songs though she'll admit she's not the best. ⚘ Contrary to popular belief, Lia is really good at taking charge and planning, even when she's blurting out ideas and thoughts because they're just spilling out of her ⚘ Will do anything within her power for someone she cares about, even if it seems reluctant. Lia talks her stuff and she might stamp her feet or seem like she's thinking only about herself, but nine times out of ten she always finds a way to pull through for someone else ⚘ Music, Lia has always loved singing even though she's never been classically trained, but she learned the piano young and is pretty decent on the acoustic guitar ⚘ She's actually improved her cooking skills, not just for survival, but literally because she doesn't want Dion to hate food because of her ⚘ Taking pictures
|Flaws/Weakness|
Anxiety and worrying seems to be a Boudreaux trait at this point. Even if Amelia now thinks things through better with age and having become a parent, she's liable to work herself up trying to be perfect and not forget something that she winds up doing exactly that. It usually involves things like making sure Dion is fed that she doesn't get herself food or packing his bag for the day, but not making sure she has every little thing ⚘ Can't sit still to save her life. Lia has always had boundless energy; it was why she was always getting into something growing up. Even on a relaxing day when she has nothing on the calendar, she doesn't know what it means to just laze around; she could barely do it during the thicket of her pregnancy ⚘ Dion is her ultimate weakness. Amelia hates the idea of failing him or anyone critiquing her about the way she might parent. Even pointing out one flaw in her parenting or the way she cares for him gets her extremely defensive and snappy. He's the quickest way to get on her bad side. ⚘ Even though she's improved on her cooking, there are some things like slow roasting foods and whatnot that she cannot do. Anything that requires too much patience like honeyed ham and turkey just go over her head because she's so impatient. And her baking leaves even herself wanting ⚘ Stubborn to a goddamn fault ⚘ Tendency to run away from feelings and issues she's not ready to confront; flighty
|Hobbies|
Listening to music and even messing with the tunes via audio production tools ▪ Playing the piano ▪ Photography and photo editing ▪ Traveling ▪ Keeping up with the latest and underrated artists/musicians ▪ Yoga, even though Dion thinks that it's simply play time or an opportunity to ruin/join his mama's fun
|Fears|
Anyone taking her son from her or anything happening to Dion, in general ø Her ex-boyfriend ø Always being a disappointment to her mother (and family) ø Never accomplishing her dreams ø Not being able to give her son the childhood he deserves ø Pitch-black darkness ø Snakes ø Dion's father coming after them after all this time
|Secrets|
No one in her childhood home or family, aside from her brother, know that she gave birth to a son a little over a year ago ✤ Amelia knows about at least three affairs each on both of her parents' parts during the course of their marriage, which is why she and her mom clash the most ✤ She was in an abusive relationship for two years with the man who actually is Dion's father
|Goals/Dreams|
Amelia's number one dream has always been to open up her own record label. It was a part of the reason why she had moved all the way to Los Angeles to work with a big label: she'd wanted the experience and to truly see the inside of the business. She had absolutely hated working under the executive she'd been an EA for; she hated serving coffee, doing all the talent acquisition that he needed to do without getting the pay or acknowledgement, and being so close to the studio without being able to linger and explore like she wanted. So, she'd love to make a record label local to her hometown and work with local artists, and even bring in some sounds from elsewhere since she's networked her entire life with singers ▪ Record at least one album of her own. Lia used to sing and dance when she did pageants with her mom, and so even though those pageant days are done, she's never lost that fever for the stage, even if she'll say she has ▪ Actually fall in love, get married and give Dion siblings. As painful as childbirth has been, and as bad as her love life seems to have always been, there is a part of Lia that wants to believe that she can still have a happy ever after. She'd always wanted to have her big wedding and have a love she feels from the inside out. It's just....not been in the cards all these years. ▪ Make up with her sister. Amelia wants to make her parents proud and to have a better relationship with them, but the most important person for her to reconcile with has always been the one she called her other half: Diana. She's missed her deeply and there's so much she hasn't even spoken to Ben about that she only wanted her big sister to comfort her about.
Has an
|Talents(T) | Strengths(ST) | Skills(SK) |
A social butterfly at heart and a performer in her own right, even when she doesn't think so, Amelia knows how to connect with people and make new friends, but her greatest skill is connecting with other artists and making them feel seen and heard because she technically does see them and hear their sound. She's really good at being able to pluck the talent out of them and pick really good artists to represent a scene or label, which was why she was kept on when she interned for a big label and eventually worked for them full time. She knows what makes an artist sound their absolute best and she knows how to mix sounds to better create audio experiences, as well as write songs though she'll admit she's not the best. ⚘ Contrary to popular belief, Lia is really good at taking charge and planning, even when she's blurting out ideas and thoughts because they're just spilling out of her ⚘ Will do anything within her power for someone she cares about, even if it seems reluctant. Lia talks her stuff and she might stamp her feet or seem like she's thinking only about herself, but nine times out of ten she always finds a way to pull through for someone else ⚘ Music, Lia has always loved singing even though she's never been classically trained, but she learned the piano young and is pretty decent on the acoustic guitar ⚘ She's actually improved her cooking skills, not just for survival, but literally because she doesn't want Dion to hate food because of her ⚘ Taking pictures
|Flaws/Weakness|
Anxiety and worrying seems to be a Boudreaux trait at this point. Even if Amelia now thinks things through better with age and having become a parent, she's liable to work herself up trying to be perfect and not forget something that she winds up doing exactly that. It usually involves things like making sure Dion is fed that she doesn't get herself food or packing his bag for the day, but not making sure she has every little thing ⚘ Can't sit still to save her life. Lia has always had boundless energy; it was why she was always getting into something growing up. Even on a relaxing day when she has nothing on the calendar, she doesn't know what it means to just laze around; she could barely do it during the thicket of her pregnancy ⚘ Dion is her ultimate weakness. Amelia hates the idea of failing him or anyone critiquing her about the way she might parent. Even pointing out one flaw in her parenting or the way she cares for him gets her extremely defensive and snappy. He's the quickest way to get on her bad side. ⚘ Even though she's improved on her cooking, there are some things like slow roasting foods and whatnot that she cannot do. Anything that requires too much patience like honeyed ham and turkey just go over her head because she's so impatient. And her baking leaves even herself wanting ⚘ Stubborn to a goddamn fault ⚘ Tendency to run away from feelings and issues she's not ready to confront; flighty
|Hobbies|
Listening to music and even messing with the tunes via audio production tools ▪ Playing the piano ▪ Photography and photo editing ▪ Traveling ▪ Keeping up with the latest and underrated artists/musicians ▪ Yoga, even though Dion thinks that it's simply play time or an opportunity to ruin/join his mama's fun
|Fears|
Anyone taking her son from her or anything happening to Dion, in general ø Her ex-boyfriend ø Always being a disappointment to her mother (and family) ø Never accomplishing her dreams ø Not being able to give her son the childhood he deserves ø Pitch-black darkness ø Snakes ø Dion's father coming after them after all this time
|Secrets|
No one in her childhood home or family, aside from her brother, know that she gave birth to a son a little over a year ago ✤ Amelia knows about at least three affairs each on both of her parents' parts during the course of their marriage, which is why she and her mom clash the most ✤ She was in an abusive relationship for two years with the man who actually is Dion's father
|Goals/Dreams|
Amelia's number one dream has always been to open up her own record label. It was a part of the reason why she had moved all the way to Los Angeles to work with a big label: she'd wanted the experience and to truly see the inside of the business. She had absolutely hated working under the executive she'd been an EA for; she hated serving coffee, doing all the talent acquisition that he needed to do without getting the pay or acknowledgement, and being so close to the studio without being able to linger and explore like she wanted. So, she'd love to make a record label local to her hometown and work with local artists, and even bring in some sounds from elsewhere since she's networked her entire life with singers ▪ Record at least one album of her own. Lia used to sing and dance when she did pageants with her mom, and so even though those pageant days are done, she's never lost that fever for the stage, even if she'll say she has ▪ Actually fall in love, get married and give Dion siblings. As painful as childbirth has been, and as bad as her love life seems to have always been, there is a part of Lia that wants to believe that she can still have a happy ever after. She'd always wanted to have her big wedding and have a love she feels from the inside out. It's just....not been in the cards all these years. ▪ Make up with her sister. Amelia wants to make her parents proud and to have a better relationship with them, but the most important person for her to reconcile with has always been the one she called her other half: Diana. She's missed her deeply and there's so much she hasn't even spoken to Ben about that she only wanted her big sister to comfort her about.
{“All the things that people do in order to show that they don't need anybody... meanwhile, all they really want to do is say, "Please keep me." We all want to be kept. The problem is we are too afraid to let anyone know about it. What are these fragile things in our hearts that have so much fear of being broken?” }
- C. JoyBell C.
|Personality|
|Vivacious| |Stubborn| |Enigmatic| |Tactless| |Protective| |Mercurial|
The one thing about Amelia that she doesn't like to give her mother credit for is that the Boudreaux girls know how to draw attention. Whether her mother always thought it was for the wrong reasons or not, that part of Lia has not changed, even now. At the end of the day, Amelia is a vivacious entertainer with a debonair charm that attracts people to her, oftentimes drawing them into her embrace and probably on some last minute, hairbrained plan because she had never known what it meant to truly sit down and relax. It's probably why, despite never truly being as pleased with it as she think she should, becoming a traveling vlogger came so naturally to Amelia. It was never that she couldn't appreciate education or learning, but she needed a learning and experience that was on the go and entirely hers, that allowed her to be free and chart her own path. Despite not being known for staying in one relationship or in one location for long, it isn't that Amelia is trying to find something in the great unknown and bring her family constant shame and uncertainty. It's simply that her pleasures range all over the place and she's a keen explorer, always seeking to not remain stagnant in the box her mother once placed her in and finding new (mostly musical and artful) experiences that she'll never forget. Allowing herself to live a life she doesn't regret. However, this confusion of who she is - the uncertainty over whether she can commit or not, not just to people but to places and things - isn't just a seed her mother has planted. Whether or not she wants to acknowledge it, Amelia is flighty at times and quick to run away from her problems, never bothering to delve too deep into her need to escape because she'd have to confront her fears over being trapped in a loveless marriage like her parents because of duty or not allowing herself the permanence of a true relationship because the last time resulted in a black eye.
At her core, though, Amelia is a lover of people, connections, music and most of all family. It was never hard for her to cultivate and even maintain relationships when she has wanted to. Spontaneous, energetic, and fun-loving, Amelia was always the one up for and willing to initiate a good time, even if it meant getting into a little bit of trouble. It was probably a trait her parents adored about her until they realized that this extroverted nature did not come equipped with the grace Diana can be found with. Amelia played her part for a few years until she noticed some flaws in both her family code and in her own, and now she finds it difficult to hold her tongue. She doesn't care to mince her words; if she feels a certain way, she's more than liable to say it and if it comes down to it, she's not against slapping the living daylights out of someone. The only time she's putting on a show is if she's playing music or actually deciding to sing, but she doesn't extend that performative disposition to the world away from the stage. It's not even that she doesn't remember her graces; it's simply because they could never stick. Emotive without meaning to, Amelia damn near wears her heart on her sleeve to the extent that she cannot hide what she feels, even when her words say otherwise. She's more sensitive than she cares to admit to and snaps, much like a disgruntled cat, when she feels in danger of being vulnerable. Or, in most cases, escaping at her earliest convenience.
Nevertheless, Amelia is a Boudreaux woman and a Leo at that, which makes it impossible for her not to be stubborn and hard-headed. She's liable to chart her own path and be damned if anyone tells her otherwise, oftentimes extremely defensive of her decisions but especially of her son and the way she raises him. After being on her own for so long, Amelia's not about to be told how to live her life by anyone who doesn't understand the decisions she's had to make. She didn't ask for anything from anyone but acceptance that it was her life and she's not begging now, so she doesn't want unsolicited advice in her life. Even if she occasionally needs it. With that being said, regardless of how open Amelia allows herself to be perceived, despite how many connections she can and has made, it is easy for her to get people to open up to her without having to give up any parts of herself, oftentimes coming out the one who knows more about the other people she's involved with than them knowing any details she doesn't want them to know. An evasiveness that is surprising, Amelia's been hurt too many times, first by her parents and then by the many boyfriends who only wanted sex or control, to allow herself to be as vulnerable as a teen Amelia had been - the girl who had loved too easily. Now, Amelia loves, just in her distant way that lets her walk away easily, allows her to have fun without the consequence of true heartbreak after because she's scared she won't survive another. Constantly worrying that she's going about everything wrong, and unwilling to bend for the sake of anyone else, Amelia's fine with everyone believing what they want about her. She can always leave when she wants.
|Likes|
Southern fried chicken ▲ Cortado ▲ Music and the different cultures surrounding it ▲ Traveling ▲ Photography ▲ Baked goods, esp. strawberry rhubarb pie ▲ Dancing ▲ Flowers, esp. forget-me-nots & peonies ▲ Her rose-scented bath oils ▲ Seafood, esp. seafood paella
|Dislikes|
Brussel sprouts ▼ Jet-lag ▼ Snakes ▼ Other people's expectations of her ▼ Thunderstorms ▼ Mint chocolate ice cream ▼ Being told what to do ▼ Beer ▼ Having spent so long away from family
|Vivacious| |Stubborn| |Enigmatic| |Tactless| |Protective| |Mercurial|
The one thing about Amelia that she doesn't like to give her mother credit for is that the Boudreaux girls know how to draw attention. Whether her mother always thought it was for the wrong reasons or not, that part of Lia has not changed, even now. At the end of the day, Amelia is a vivacious entertainer with a debonair charm that attracts people to her, oftentimes drawing them into her embrace and probably on some last minute, hairbrained plan because she had never known what it meant to truly sit down and relax. It's probably why, despite never truly being as pleased with it as she think she should, becoming a traveling vlogger came so naturally to Amelia. It was never that she couldn't appreciate education or learning, but she needed a learning and experience that was on the go and entirely hers, that allowed her to be free and chart her own path. Despite not being known for staying in one relationship or in one location for long, it isn't that Amelia is trying to find something in the great unknown and bring her family constant shame and uncertainty. It's simply that her pleasures range all over the place and she's a keen explorer, always seeking to not remain stagnant in the box her mother once placed her in and finding new (mostly musical and artful) experiences that she'll never forget. Allowing herself to live a life she doesn't regret. However, this confusion of who she is - the uncertainty over whether she can commit or not, not just to people but to places and things - isn't just a seed her mother has planted. Whether or not she wants to acknowledge it, Amelia is flighty at times and quick to run away from her problems, never bothering to delve too deep into her need to escape because she'd have to confront her fears over being trapped in a loveless marriage like her parents because of duty or not allowing herself the permanence of a true relationship because the last time resulted in a black eye.
At her core, though, Amelia is a lover of people, connections, music and most of all family. It was never hard for her to cultivate and even maintain relationships when she has wanted to. Spontaneous, energetic, and fun-loving, Amelia was always the one up for and willing to initiate a good time, even if it meant getting into a little bit of trouble. It was probably a trait her parents adored about her until they realized that this extroverted nature did not come equipped with the grace Diana can be found with. Amelia played her part for a few years until she noticed some flaws in both her family code and in her own, and now she finds it difficult to hold her tongue. She doesn't care to mince her words; if she feels a certain way, she's more than liable to say it and if it comes down to it, she's not against slapping the living daylights out of someone. The only time she's putting on a show is if she's playing music or actually deciding to sing, but she doesn't extend that performative disposition to the world away from the stage. It's not even that she doesn't remember her graces; it's simply because they could never stick. Emotive without meaning to, Amelia damn near wears her heart on her sleeve to the extent that she cannot hide what she feels, even when her words say otherwise. She's more sensitive than she cares to admit to and snaps, much like a disgruntled cat, when she feels in danger of being vulnerable. Or, in most cases, escaping at her earliest convenience.
Nevertheless, Amelia is a Boudreaux woman and a Leo at that, which makes it impossible for her not to be stubborn and hard-headed. She's liable to chart her own path and be damned if anyone tells her otherwise, oftentimes extremely defensive of her decisions but especially of her son and the way she raises him. After being on her own for so long, Amelia's not about to be told how to live her life by anyone who doesn't understand the decisions she's had to make. She didn't ask for anything from anyone but acceptance that it was her life and she's not begging now, so she doesn't want unsolicited advice in her life. Even if she occasionally needs it. With that being said, regardless of how open Amelia allows herself to be perceived, despite how many connections she can and has made, it is easy for her to get people to open up to her without having to give up any parts of herself, oftentimes coming out the one who knows more about the other people she's involved with than them knowing any details she doesn't want them to know. An evasiveness that is surprising, Amelia's been hurt too many times, first by her parents and then by the many boyfriends who only wanted sex or control, to allow herself to be as vulnerable as a teen Amelia had been - the girl who had loved too easily. Now, Amelia loves, just in her distant way that lets her walk away easily, allows her to have fun without the consequence of true heartbreak after because she's scared she won't survive another. Constantly worrying that she's going about everything wrong, and unwilling to bend for the sake of anyone else, Amelia's fine with everyone believing what they want about her. She can always leave when she wants.
|Likes|
Southern fried chicken ▲ Cortado ▲ Music and the different cultures surrounding it ▲ Traveling ▲ Photography ▲ Baked goods, esp. strawberry rhubarb pie ▲ Dancing ▲ Flowers, esp. forget-me-nots & peonies ▲ Her rose-scented bath oils ▲ Seafood, esp. seafood paella
|Dislikes|
Brussel sprouts ▼ Jet-lag ▼ Snakes ▼ Other people's expectations of her ▼ Thunderstorms ▼ Mint chocolate ice cream ▼ Being told what to do ▼ Beer ▼ Having spent so long away from family
{“We all do things we desperately wish we could undo. Those regrets just become part of who we are, along with everything else. To spend time trying to change that, well, it's like chasing clouds.” }
- Libba Bray
|Place of Origin|
Baton Rouge, Louisiana {Birth - 3 yrs old} || Bluffton, North Carolina {4 yrs old - 17 yrs old} || Los Angeles, California {17 yrs. old - 21 yrs. old} || Marbella, Spain {21 yrs. old - Current}
|Family Tree|
Margaret Boudreaux || Mother || 49 || Living
William Boudreaux III || Father || 54 || Living
Benjamin Boudreaux-Hansen || Older Brother || 26 || Living
Ikenasio Amasio-Hansen || Brother-in-Law || 26 || Living
Diana Boudreaux || Fraternal Twin Sister || 24 || Living
Dion Boudreaux || Son || 14 months || Living
|Happiest Memory|
Giving birth and finally having Dion in her arms is legitimately the happiest memory in Amelia's collection of memories. It feels early to be a mother at times, but she wouldn't take back her son if her love depended on it.
|Saddest Memory|
The last day she spoke to Diana. They both said some things they hadn't meant, but Amelia feels extremely bad for not being able to reach out to her twin. At first, it had been righteous rage and then stubbornness because she didn't think she should have had to be the first one to reach out. Afterwards, when too much time passed and she was going through a rough patch, it just felt like it was too late to talk to her sister.
Baton Rouge, Louisiana {Birth - 3 yrs old} || Bluffton, North Carolina {4 yrs old - 17 yrs old} || Los Angeles, California {17 yrs. old - 21 yrs. old} || Marbella, Spain {21 yrs. old - Current}
|Family Tree|
Margaret Boudreaux || Mother || 49 || Living
William Boudreaux III || Father || 54 || Living
Benjamin Boudreaux-Hansen || Older Brother || 26 || Living
Ikenasio Amasio-Hansen || Brother-in-Law || 26 || Living
Diana Boudreaux || Fraternal Twin Sister || 24 || Living
Dion Boudreaux || Son || 14 months || Living
|Happiest Memory|
Giving birth and finally having Dion in her arms is legitimately the happiest memory in Amelia's collection of memories. It feels early to be a mother at times, but she wouldn't take back her son if her love depended on it.
|Saddest Memory|
The last day she spoke to Diana. They both said some things they hadn't meant, but Amelia feels extremely bad for not being able to reach out to her twin. At first, it had been righteous rage and then stubbornness because she didn't think she should have had to be the first one to reach out. Afterwards, when too much time passed and she was going through a rough patch, it just felt like it was too late to talk to her sister.
{“All parents damage their children. It cannot be helped. Youth, like pristine glass, absorbs the prints of its handlers. Some parents smudge, others crack, a few shatter childhoods completely into jagged little pieces, beyond repair.” }
- Mitch Albom, The Five People You Meet in Heaven
|History|
Amelia wouldn't be the Boudreaux child trusted to remember in truth their lives in Louisiana. The family only returned once or twice during her younger years, and because the visits were brief, Amelia only remembers the sticky heat that never seemed quite as bad in North Carolina and the sweat she'd have to pretend to not swipe at when she was approached by family members whose names draw a blank in her head today. What she does remember is the too-large-to-feel-like-a-home house in what she views as her hometown in Bluffton. The youngest of the Boudreaux clan, Amelia didn't always clash with her parents and a younger her had never envisioned falling out with her family to the extent that she'd move to another country. More likely than not, it started when she was much younger than fourteen but her most concrete memory that serves as a point of reference for the dissent.
Before high school, while it seemed as though both Ben and Diana flourished academically, Amelia found her place amongst the performers. A beauty queen herself, Margaret had been adamant about having at least one of her girls compete as well and when she was younger, Amelia loved the stage. Back then, she had every confidence in her abilities and it had been when she felt her closest to her mother. She may not have had Diana's poise or Ben's verbal dexterity, but what she had was her charm, years of gymnastics, and a voice. And she used all of them, trying to hard to impress her parents in this area when she clearly was lacking in others. Until the day she caught her mother having an affair with her gymnastics coach. She hadn't meant to walk in on them; her mother had told her that she'd be out of the coach's office in a minute, but Amelia - as always - was impatient. Margaret had sworn her to secrecy then and there, but the damage had done. For so long, Amelia had begun to think something was wrong with her; she just couldn't impress her parents enough, couldn't make them proud enough, even when her Dad consoled her with kisses on her forehead after rejecting invitations to her "frivolous" cheer competitions or pageants. But seeing how imperfect they truly were was both heartbreaking and relieving. It meant that she didn't have to perform. It probably helped that her Dad somehow found out about the affair and ended her gymnastics training under the guise that Amelia was bored with it now. It didn't take long for pageantry to stop too.
What began, though, was an adolescent rife with neglecting her parents' wishes and expectations. Oh, Amelia still did well in school to a degree; she had never particularly failed and one wouldn't say she excelled. She didn't have the outstanding grades that would get her into an Ivy League or either of her parents' alma mater. She was a cheerleader though, a love of moving that she couldn't deny herself. But beyond that, Amelia learned to live for herself. She dyed her hair blonde against her mother's wishes, partied and threw parties even, and went wild. She flitted in and out of relationships, found out more of her parents' affairs without ever meaning to, and buried herself in unemotional entanglements because well, she'd never really been loved properly before, had she? She'd always been a pretty doll. She'd been the fun twin, which led to her and Diana falling out loads of times, often clashing simply because the two stopped remembering how not to. Lia even started even seeing Diana like their mother, only worried about her actions reflected on the family with no true concern about Amelia.
Which was why she left. Amelia had always known she wanted to work in the music business; she had spent junior and senior year working with audio applications on the computer and going to as many concerts as possible. When she landed an internship with a big label due to one of their high school teachers, she marched out of Bluffton without hesitation, infuriating her parents who had wanted to see her in school. California had been fun, sure, and it had provided ample experience. The issue had been, however, in what she was doing. While her internship turned into a full-time career that at least kept Amelia on her feet without having to ask her parents for a dime, it also seemed like a perpetual internship. She was always fetching coffee, dealing with minor sexual harassment from one of her bosses who cared more about how she looked in the office as opposed to the actual ideas she gave him, and doing so much work - like even bringing in new talent - without true recognition. It afforded her a few opportunities to travel with clients, which was how her blog came about. Her social media had turned into a traveling platform complete with pictures of the states and a few countries she'd traveled to on tour. So, despite knowing her heart had been set on music, Amelia quit, much to the chagrin and disbelief of her twin. Which led to them falling out and losing contact with one more person.
To say that Amelia is disappointed with her life is both a lie and the truth. To some extent, she's lived. She has been invited to resorts and hotels, and even other countries. She couldn't even begin to explain how she landed in Marbella, Spain. All she knows is that she visited once and even though she's been called away occasionally, she hasn't really left. But there are still some regrets. Relationships she knows she should not have found herself into. A lack of making her own music or really getting started in the business she had set out for. The one thing she can't regret is Dion. The result of an abusive relationship she had managed to hide from Ben because she didn't want to stress him out too much, Dion is a reminder of her mistake but also her greatest joy. Which is why she's nervous about bringing him home with her. She's not prepared for anyone having anything to say about her having a child out of wedlock and she's not prepared to discuss her past with his father.
Amelia wouldn't be the Boudreaux child trusted to remember in truth their lives in Louisiana. The family only returned once or twice during her younger years, and because the visits were brief, Amelia only remembers the sticky heat that never seemed quite as bad in North Carolina and the sweat she'd have to pretend to not swipe at when she was approached by family members whose names draw a blank in her head today. What she does remember is the too-large-to-feel-like-a-home house in what she views as her hometown in Bluffton. The youngest of the Boudreaux clan, Amelia didn't always clash with her parents and a younger her had never envisioned falling out with her family to the extent that she'd move to another country. More likely than not, it started when she was much younger than fourteen but her most concrete memory that serves as a point of reference for the dissent.
Before high school, while it seemed as though both Ben and Diana flourished academically, Amelia found her place amongst the performers. A beauty queen herself, Margaret had been adamant about having at least one of her girls compete as well and when she was younger, Amelia loved the stage. Back then, she had every confidence in her abilities and it had been when she felt her closest to her mother. She may not have had Diana's poise or Ben's verbal dexterity, but what she had was her charm, years of gymnastics, and a voice. And she used all of them, trying to hard to impress her parents in this area when she clearly was lacking in others. Until the day she caught her mother having an affair with her gymnastics coach. She hadn't meant to walk in on them; her mother had told her that she'd be out of the coach's office in a minute, but Amelia - as always - was impatient. Margaret had sworn her to secrecy then and there, but the damage had done. For so long, Amelia had begun to think something was wrong with her; she just couldn't impress her parents enough, couldn't make them proud enough, even when her Dad consoled her with kisses on her forehead after rejecting invitations to her "frivolous" cheer competitions or pageants. But seeing how imperfect they truly were was both heartbreaking and relieving. It meant that she didn't have to perform. It probably helped that her Dad somehow found out about the affair and ended her gymnastics training under the guise that Amelia was bored with it now. It didn't take long for pageantry to stop too.
What began, though, was an adolescent rife with neglecting her parents' wishes and expectations. Oh, Amelia still did well in school to a degree; she had never particularly failed and one wouldn't say she excelled. She didn't have the outstanding grades that would get her into an Ivy League or either of her parents' alma mater. She was a cheerleader though, a love of moving that she couldn't deny herself. But beyond that, Amelia learned to live for herself. She dyed her hair blonde against her mother's wishes, partied and threw parties even, and went wild. She flitted in and out of relationships, found out more of her parents' affairs without ever meaning to, and buried herself in unemotional entanglements because well, she'd never really been loved properly before, had she? She'd always been a pretty doll. She'd been the fun twin, which led to her and Diana falling out loads of times, often clashing simply because the two stopped remembering how not to. Lia even started even seeing Diana like their mother, only worried about her actions reflected on the family with no true concern about Amelia.
Which was why she left. Amelia had always known she wanted to work in the music business; she had spent junior and senior year working with audio applications on the computer and going to as many concerts as possible. When she landed an internship with a big label due to one of their high school teachers, she marched out of Bluffton without hesitation, infuriating her parents who had wanted to see her in school. California had been fun, sure, and it had provided ample experience. The issue had been, however, in what she was doing. While her internship turned into a full-time career that at least kept Amelia on her feet without having to ask her parents for a dime, it also seemed like a perpetual internship. She was always fetching coffee, dealing with minor sexual harassment from one of her bosses who cared more about how she looked in the office as opposed to the actual ideas she gave him, and doing so much work - like even bringing in new talent - without true recognition. It afforded her a few opportunities to travel with clients, which was how her blog came about. Her social media had turned into a traveling platform complete with pictures of the states and a few countries she'd traveled to on tour. So, despite knowing her heart had been set on music, Amelia quit, much to the chagrin and disbelief of her twin. Which led to them falling out and losing contact with one more person.
To say that Amelia is disappointed with her life is both a lie and the truth. To some extent, she's lived. She has been invited to resorts and hotels, and even other countries. She couldn't even begin to explain how she landed in Marbella, Spain. All she knows is that she visited once and even though she's been called away occasionally, she hasn't really left. But there are still some regrets. Relationships she knows she should not have found herself into. A lack of making her own music or really getting started in the business she had set out for. The one thing she can't regret is Dion. The result of an abusive relationship she had managed to hide from Ben because she didn't want to stress him out too much, Dion is a reminder of her mistake but also her greatest joy. Which is why she's nervous about bringing him home with her. She's not prepared for anyone having anything to say about her having a child out of wedlock and she's not prepared to discuss her past with his father.
{“Words make you think. Music makes you feel. A song makes you feel a thought.” }
- Yip Harburg
Stale sweat and cinnamon
I guess she is frightened most of all
Loves to fly but she's scared to fall
She's got scars on the outside
Says they're the worst kind
And I don't ask
She turns the lights out and locks the door
If this is fate count me out
And never try
Please never try to hold her down
Broken home
Broken bones
She never told anyone but me
And everything seemed make believe
We both ran
You can't ever catch horizon
Guess that's why we've both been riding so damn long
She says she thinks of me as home
If this is fate count me out
And never try
Please never try to hold her down
Hands on hips and lips to lips
I don't know how much someone could take from her
Fourth of July
Watch the night sky
I'm wondering why the truth ain't so easy this time
"Hey, wanna fuck?"
Did I just say that? Oh my God
I feel stupid, am I a slut?
I think I need to stop drinking
Wait, no, walk away
Don't want to drown you in my mistakes
Oh, I'm a felon, you're a saint
Don't stand so close to my demons
Why am I always stuck up on my fucking problems?
So busy tryna numb the pain
Why am I always faded like I'm still in college?
Consider this my cry for help
Oh, I can't seem to get my shit together
And I promise every day
I try but this shit just takes forever
And when I finally meet a guy
I try and I try to believe him
But when I finally do I get scared and I leave him
I'm giving up
I can't seem to get my shit together
Consider this my cry for help
Oops, did it again
I got no key, just let me in
I need yoga, I need a cleanse (I need a cleanse)
Feels like I'm never done screaming
Why am I always stuck up on my fucking problems?
So busy tryna numb the pain
Why am I always faded like I'm still in college?
Consider this my cry for help
Oh, I can't seem to get my shit together
And I promise every day
I try but that shit just takes forever
And when I finally meet a guy
I try and I try to believe him
But when I finally do I get scared and I leave him
I'm giving up
I can't seem to get my shit together
Consider this my cry for help
Consider this my cry for help
My cry for help
Consider this my cry for help, help, help
Why am I always stuck up on my fucking problems?
So busy tryna numb the pain
Why am I always faded like I'm still in college?
Consider this my cry for help
Oh, I can't seem to get my shit together
And I promise every day
I try but that shit just takes forever
And when I finally meet a guy
I try and I try to believe him
But when I finally do I get scared and I leave him
I'm giving up
I can't seem to get my shit together
Consider this my cry for help
{“Our sweetest songs are those of saddest thought.” }
- Percy Bysshe Shelley, The Complete Poems
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❣Amelia has an apartment still in Marbella, Spain that she lives in with Dion. Even though she travels when a new resort, hotel or even musicians invite her to another city, this has been her home for the last three years.❣
❣Lia has been dyeing her hair blonde since she was fourteen after her last pageant where she put on a Marilyn Monroe-inspired performance, and though she's never committed to the more platinum color, she has yet to return to the brunette locks she and Diana were born with.❣
❣Amelia always planned to name her firstborn after Diana; she always assumed it would be a girl. Dion was as close as she could get without finding a name that simply meant the same thing. ❣
❣While Lia focuses primarily on other artists, she actually has a pretty good singing voice.❣
❣While she doesn't remember the Louisiana property she's sure her parents still own, she does still have a bedroom in their family home in Bluffton.❣
❣Amelia has an apartment still in Marbella, Spain that she lives in with Dion. Even though she travels when a new resort, hotel or even musicians invite her to another city, this has been her home for the last three years.❣
❣Lia has been dyeing her hair blonde since she was fourteen after her last pageant where she put on a Marilyn Monroe-inspired performance, and though she's never committed to the more platinum color, she has yet to return to the brunette locks she and Diana were born with.❣
❣Amelia always planned to name her firstborn after Diana; she always assumed it would be a girl. Dion was as close as she could get without finding a name that simply meant the same thing. ❣
❣While Lia focuses primarily on other artists, she actually has a pretty good singing voice.❣
❣While she doesn't remember the Louisiana property she's sure her parents still own, she does still have a bedroom in their family home in Bluffton.❣
