{“And there it was. He knew it, and I knew it. There was nothing left for me to do. Do you know how hard it is to say nothing ? When every atom of you strains to do the opposite? I just tried to be, tried to absorb the man I loved through osmosis, tried to imprint what I had left of him on myself. I did not speak...” }
- Jojo Moyes, Me Before You
Concrete Angel - Christina Novelli || Glass Heart - Sam Tinnesz || Let Him Go - Birdy || Touch - Daughter
|Full Name|
Ikenasio Anjelo Amasio-Hansen
|Nickname|
Nas is the most common and in all honesty, the only one he tolerates. Grudgingly, though, he hasn't been able to shake his younger brother calling him Icky, especially not after Amelia also took up calling him such.
|Birth Date|
May 5, 1994
|Age|
26
|Ethnicity|
Tongan || Samoan || Fijian || Danish
|Occupation|
Auto Mechanics || Bluffton Handyman
|Sexuality|
Pansexual
|Marital Status|
Married but separated
Ikenasio Anjelo Amasio-Hansen
|Nickname|
Nas is the most common and in all honesty, the only one he tolerates. Grudgingly, though, he hasn't been able to shake his younger brother calling him Icky, especially not after Amelia also took up calling him such.
|Birth Date|
May 5, 1994
|Age|
26
|Ethnicity|
Tongan || Samoan || Fijian || Danish
|Occupation|
Auto Mechanics || Bluffton Handyman
|Sexuality|
Pansexual
|Marital Status|
Married but separated
{“Insanity is doing the same thing, over and over again, but expecting different results.”}
- Narcotics Anonymous
|Quirks & Habits|
▪ Eats foods like pizza, strawberries, ect. backwards ▪ Actually really loves coconut and coconut flavored foods/drinks, but is now horrible allergic ▪ Claims he's not particularly religious, but keeps his mother's bible in the first drawer of his nightstand. ▪ Talks in his sleep in low murmurs and doesn't always make sense.
|Talents(T) | Strengths(ST) | Skills(SK) |
Something he picked up from his father, Nas has always been pretty handy, a jack of all trades if you will. He was always knowledgeable on the mechanics of a car considering his family's business, but he'd always learned enough here and there from neighbors and family friends about electrical wiring, plumbing, lights, and construction etc. to be able to help out around town. He's been supplementing his income with this skill set since he was eighteen. ⚘ Surprisingly enough, despite how quiet he usually is or as much as he tells himself he stays out of people's business, Nas has a small bit of wisdom in him and gives really sage advice when he wants to. ⚘ Nas has a true passion in drawing but particularly architecture design and construction. He knows materials and how to create sound structures, and how to do them safely while ensuring their integrity.
|Flaws/Weakness|
Nas is the last person to ever follow his own advice. He could literally tell another friend that communication is key and just not listen to himself. ⚘ His serious abandonment issues. He's surmised too easily that there's something inherently wrong with him, so people leave his life because of that fact. ⚘ It would be easy to say that it's just his insecurities and burdens keeping Nas from really seeking more architecture opportunities, but the other truth is that Nas is too comfortable. He's never really pushed too hard for life outside of fulfilling his family's needs, so he almost refuses to acknowledge that there's time for him to still pursue the thing he's actually passionate about and that he's not as stuck as he thinks. His current place in life is partly because of the responsibilities heaped upon a child too young, but also his own doing.
|Hobbies|
Sketching ▪ Reading ▪ Word puzzles ▪ Boxing ▪ Driving
|Fears|
He's the reason everyone in his life that he loves the most keeps leaving ø Heights ø Feeling this stuck forever ø Succumbing to his father's same vices ø Squirrels
|Secrets|
He's gone back to underground fighting after telling Ben that he'd stop. Nas had gotten into it only because of the additional money he'd been able to bring his family. He stopped after he married Ben for his husband's sake, but once they separated and Nas needed to feel something other than grief, it was easy to fall back into old habits. ✤ Nas is still convinced he somehow didn't work hard enough to stop his father from becoming addicted to alcohol after his mom left. ✤ Beyond Ben, Nas is the only other person who knows about Amelia's son and he has a very good relationship with his nephew. ✤ Regardless of how unaffected he likes to be, Nas has bought at least three copies of every book in Ben's young adult series. He just hides them all around their apartment. ✤ Nas has a copy of divorce papers he keeps hidden at the apartment, telling himself that he's going to give them to Ben one day to free him. He hasn't even signed them yet.
|Goals/Dreams|
Nas has always wanted to put his architecture certification to use. He doesn't have any grand ideas that are going to go down in history, but he's always wanted to have the time to work on projects beyond fixing up people's houses such as designing an entire new high school or even completely re-doing the town hall into something that doesn't look like it came from the 40s. He just wants to actually do the thing he always wanted to and feel proud of himself. ▪ If he's being completely honest, Nas hasn't thought of any option for himself beyond Ben. He wants his husband back and the selfish part of him wants to force himself to be enough for Ben to lean on, even though he doesn't think he was the first time. ▪ He has always known that he wanted to adopt. Not because there aren't ways to get a child with his blood, but because Nas just always knew that he'd wanted to provide a child who was already in need of a parent an actual parent, regardless of blood relations.
▪ Eats foods like pizza, strawberries, ect. backwards ▪ Actually really loves coconut and coconut flavored foods/drinks, but is now horrible allergic ▪ Claims he's not particularly religious, but keeps his mother's bible in the first drawer of his nightstand. ▪ Talks in his sleep in low murmurs and doesn't always make sense.
|Talents(T) | Strengths(ST) | Skills(SK) |
Something he picked up from his father, Nas has always been pretty handy, a jack of all trades if you will. He was always knowledgeable on the mechanics of a car considering his family's business, but he'd always learned enough here and there from neighbors and family friends about electrical wiring, plumbing, lights, and construction etc. to be able to help out around town. He's been supplementing his income with this skill set since he was eighteen. ⚘ Surprisingly enough, despite how quiet he usually is or as much as he tells himself he stays out of people's business, Nas has a small bit of wisdom in him and gives really sage advice when he wants to. ⚘ Nas has a true passion in drawing but particularly architecture design and construction. He knows materials and how to create sound structures, and how to do them safely while ensuring their integrity.
|Flaws/Weakness|
Nas is the last person to ever follow his own advice. He could literally tell another friend that communication is key and just not listen to himself. ⚘ His serious abandonment issues. He's surmised too easily that there's something inherently wrong with him, so people leave his life because of that fact. ⚘ It would be easy to say that it's just his insecurities and burdens keeping Nas from really seeking more architecture opportunities, but the other truth is that Nas is too comfortable. He's never really pushed too hard for life outside of fulfilling his family's needs, so he almost refuses to acknowledge that there's time for him to still pursue the thing he's actually passionate about and that he's not as stuck as he thinks. His current place in life is partly because of the responsibilities heaped upon a child too young, but also his own doing.
|Hobbies|
Sketching ▪ Reading ▪ Word puzzles ▪ Boxing ▪ Driving
|Fears|
He's the reason everyone in his life that he loves the most keeps leaving ø Heights ø Feeling this stuck forever ø Succumbing to his father's same vices ø Squirrels
|Secrets|
He's gone back to underground fighting after telling Ben that he'd stop. Nas had gotten into it only because of the additional money he'd been able to bring his family. He stopped after he married Ben for his husband's sake, but once they separated and Nas needed to feel something other than grief, it was easy to fall back into old habits. ✤ Nas is still convinced he somehow didn't work hard enough to stop his father from becoming addicted to alcohol after his mom left. ✤ Beyond Ben, Nas is the only other person who knows about Amelia's son and he has a very good relationship with his nephew. ✤ Regardless of how unaffected he likes to be, Nas has bought at least three copies of every book in Ben's young adult series. He just hides them all around their apartment. ✤ Nas has a copy of divorce papers he keeps hidden at the apartment, telling himself that he's going to give them to Ben one day to free him. He hasn't even signed them yet.
|Goals/Dreams|
Nas has always wanted to put his architecture certification to use. He doesn't have any grand ideas that are going to go down in history, but he's always wanted to have the time to work on projects beyond fixing up people's houses such as designing an entire new high school or even completely re-doing the town hall into something that doesn't look like it came from the 40s. He just wants to actually do the thing he always wanted to and feel proud of himself. ▪ If he's being completely honest, Nas hasn't thought of any option for himself beyond Ben. He wants his husband back and the selfish part of him wants to force himself to be enough for Ben to lean on, even though he doesn't think he was the first time. ▪ He has always known that he wanted to adopt. Not because there aren't ways to get a child with his blood, but because Nas just always knew that he'd wanted to provide a child who was already in need of a parent an actual parent, regardless of blood relations.
{“What if I was born into a normal life, one without a tortured childhood and without the weight of so many responsibilities and burdens?” }
- Kelly St. Clare, Fantasy of Flight
|Personality|
|Intimidating| |Self-Deprecating| |Loyal| |Confrontational| |Gruff|
Taking on as much of the weight of his family's economic situation at such a young age - and doing so while compromising his own moral standing, no less - resulted in the formation of a rock-hard persona to match his physique. For the majority of his life once Nas hit thirteen, he was considered the intimidating sibling, and to some extent, he reveled in it. Being attributed to a hardened, take-no-nonsense sort of person meant that he nor his siblings would me messed with too harshly. Sure, he endured a bit of the same ribbing a lot of his also unpopular classmates endured, but it no one could ever say he was bullied. More-so, it always looked like he was being pushed to a point and then others would back off and for that, they were smart.
Because he has spent so much time - even before his mother left - regulating his reactions and tempering the more intense emotional responses he holds underneath the surface, it is easy for Nas to appear unfeeling, a carefully controlled facade he clings to. It was always easier for him to let his little brothers feel more, express themselves more while he had to be responsible, to be the protective presence he's always been known for, even towards those he's not close to. Call it his superman complex, if you will, but Nas' instinct has always been to defend those who can't defend themselves. Even if he's considered a touch brash and reckless for it. At least, physically he can back it up. He actually likes the way that he is, not just because he derives pleasure from being able to turn some of the superficially powerful people into shivering messes because they're not prepared to deal with his reservoirs of strength and sharp tongue that happens to be backed up by a sharp enough eye to have taken in your tells, but because it's just easier than dealing with the actual feelings and thoughts he's left to drink or smoke away with whiskey and marijuana.
Though he appears perpetually cool and as if he cannot be bothered with trivial things, a simple guy like Ikenasio Amasio-Hansen does feel a lot more than people give him credit for. It just so happens that his gruff manner and seeming detached is easier than admitting to wanting more than what he deserves for how far he was and still technically is willing to go for the people he loves. He's haunted by the loss of his mother, the parent he had always been closest to and whose absence he felt the strongest growing up. Forever still reeling from not being able to respond appropriately because his caring soul couldn't let his dad take the full impact of her loss and his brothers' guilt on his own when Nas could provide aid, even if said aid was questionable. He's still overcome with guilt and remorse for the addiction he helped see through, not over a younger version of himself having justified those breakdowns he wasn't supposed to know about by how fed his brothers were, how much lighter his father's steps became until Nas felt how heavy his own were. Allows himself the subtle pleasure of having his even deeper sense of self-hatred and guilt beat into him through the fists of strangers in underground rings when he remembers a man he still loves, despite the divorce papers he's hiding away while telling himself he'll free Ben one day, breaking every and knowing he wasn't good enough to make him stay. At least he beats them back, right? That's got to be better than the nothing he provided when Ben walked out.
|Likes|
cold brew coffee ▲ reading physical books ▲ building structures and their design ▲ dark chocolate ▲ driving ▲ children ▲ country music, secretly ▲ winter ▲ art
|Dislikes|
fish ▼ hospitals and doctor's offices ▼ obnoxious perfumes or colognes ▼ airplanes ▼ overly sweet desserts or candy ▼ tequila ▼ snobs ▼ spicy food ▼ underground fighting, even though he does it
|Intimidating| |Self-Deprecating| |Loyal| |Confrontational| |Gruff|
Taking on as much of the weight of his family's economic situation at such a young age - and doing so while compromising his own moral standing, no less - resulted in the formation of a rock-hard persona to match his physique. For the majority of his life once Nas hit thirteen, he was considered the intimidating sibling, and to some extent, he reveled in it. Being attributed to a hardened, take-no-nonsense sort of person meant that he nor his siblings would me messed with too harshly. Sure, he endured a bit of the same ribbing a lot of his also unpopular classmates endured, but it no one could ever say he was bullied. More-so, it always looked like he was being pushed to a point and then others would back off and for that, they were smart.
Because he has spent so much time - even before his mother left - regulating his reactions and tempering the more intense emotional responses he holds underneath the surface, it is easy for Nas to appear unfeeling, a carefully controlled facade he clings to. It was always easier for him to let his little brothers feel more, express themselves more while he had to be responsible, to be the protective presence he's always been known for, even towards those he's not close to. Call it his superman complex, if you will, but Nas' instinct has always been to defend those who can't defend themselves. Even if he's considered a touch brash and reckless for it. At least, physically he can back it up. He actually likes the way that he is, not just because he derives pleasure from being able to turn some of the superficially powerful people into shivering messes because they're not prepared to deal with his reservoirs of strength and sharp tongue that happens to be backed up by a sharp enough eye to have taken in your tells, but because it's just easier than dealing with the actual feelings and thoughts he's left to drink or smoke away with whiskey and marijuana.
Though he appears perpetually cool and as if he cannot be bothered with trivial things, a simple guy like Ikenasio Amasio-Hansen does feel a lot more than people give him credit for. It just so happens that his gruff manner and seeming detached is easier than admitting to wanting more than what he deserves for how far he was and still technically is willing to go for the people he loves. He's haunted by the loss of his mother, the parent he had always been closest to and whose absence he felt the strongest growing up. Forever still reeling from not being able to respond appropriately because his caring soul couldn't let his dad take the full impact of her loss and his brothers' guilt on his own when Nas could provide aid, even if said aid was questionable. He's still overcome with guilt and remorse for the addiction he helped see through, not over a younger version of himself having justified those breakdowns he wasn't supposed to know about by how fed his brothers were, how much lighter his father's steps became until Nas felt how heavy his own were. Allows himself the subtle pleasure of having his even deeper sense of self-hatred and guilt beat into him through the fists of strangers in underground rings when he remembers a man he still loves, despite the divorce papers he's hiding away while telling himself he'll free Ben one day, breaking every and knowing he wasn't good enough to make him stay. At least he beats them back, right? That's got to be better than the nothing he provided when Ben walked out.
|Likes|
cold brew coffee ▲ reading physical books ▲ building structures and their design ▲ dark chocolate ▲ driving ▲ children ▲ country music, secretly ▲ winter ▲ art
|Dislikes|
fish ▼ hospitals and doctor's offices ▼ obnoxious perfumes or colognes ▼ airplanes ▼ overly sweet desserts or candy ▼ tequila ▼ snobs ▼ spicy food ▼ underground fighting, even though he does it
{“There comes a time in your life when you have to choose to turn the page, write another book or simply close it.” }
|Place of Origin|
Bluffton, North Carolina {Birth - Current}
|Family Tree|
Lani Amasio-Hansen || Mother || Would be 47 || Unknown
Daniel Hansen Sr. || Father || 50 || Living
Daniel Amasio-Hansen II || Younger Brother || 23 || Living
Manu Amasio-Hansen || Youngest Brother || 20 || Living
|Happiest Memory|
Hands down, the first date he and Ben had ever been on. His wedding definitely comes in at a close second, but it had all honesty taken him by surprise - the questions Lia had forced them to ask each other, the places she'd gotten them to stop, the way Ben's eyes lit up when they got to dessert after dinner. If he's being completely honest, Nas fell in love right then and there, watching the color flare bright and hot at the tops of Ben's cheeks as he had to answer a question over a spoonful of ice cream, probably ruminating internally about how his sister was a meddlesome shit while taking Nas' breath away.
|Saddest Memory|
It's a tie between the day Ben left and the day his mother left. Abandonment seems to be the only thing in the cards for Nas, as far as he's concerned.
Bluffton, North Carolina {Birth - Current}
|Family Tree|
Lani Amasio-Hansen || Mother || Would be 47 || Unknown
Daniel Hansen Sr. || Father || 50 || Living
Daniel Amasio-Hansen II || Younger Brother || 23 || Living
Manu Amasio-Hansen || Youngest Brother || 20 || Living
|Happiest Memory|
Hands down, the first date he and Ben had ever been on. His wedding definitely comes in at a close second, but it had all honesty taken him by surprise - the questions Lia had forced them to ask each other, the places she'd gotten them to stop, the way Ben's eyes lit up when they got to dessert after dinner. If he's being completely honest, Nas fell in love right then and there, watching the color flare bright and hot at the tops of Ben's cheeks as he had to answer a question over a spoonful of ice cream, probably ruminating internally about how his sister was a meddlesome shit while taking Nas' breath away.
|Saddest Memory|
It's a tie between the day Ben left and the day his mother left. Abandonment seems to be the only thing in the cards for Nas, as far as he's concerned.
{“I held him close and said nothing, all the while telling him silently that he was loved. Oh, but he was loved.” }
- Jojo Moyes, Me Before You
|History|
Telling their small family that Lani Amasio-Hansen suffered from life-long depression and anxiety, disorders only exacerbated by rounds of post-partum depression, probably would have aided in the kids' understanding of why their mother left them without ever looking back, maybe just a little. Not enough to truly justify her absence, not in Ikenasio's eyes at least, but something would have been better than having all of his happy memories of the woman being overrun by the one of her giving him a tearful goodbye kiss on the forehead and telling him to take care of his little brothers before his dad came home. For the first thirteen years of his life, Nas was a pretty good kid. He had always seemed like the quieter child in comparison to the two rowdy boys who followed him, but his mother always said that he took after her in that aspect. Nas had liked that as a kid, liked that though he took after his father and grew like a weed, mentally he was all her.
Then his mother left and it became very clear to him that he needed to not only be a shoulder for his siblings, and the one person to truly keep them in line because he was the only one equipped to meet them on their level, but for their father as well. He learned then that - despite being an already loving person to his family and putting them before himself anyway - he needed to put aside what he felt for their sake, especially when he realized that the part-time jobs he got after school weren't really cutting it. His dad had to take on two jobs and was exhausted, and with both of his brothers acting out in some way and forcing his already tired dad to parent even more, he needed something. Which was why it was easy for a guy in his neighborhood to get him into underground fighting. Nas had always been told to stay away from that crowd by his mom and had. But with her presence gone, and his family in need, he did what he had to do.
It was easy for some time to pretend he didn't mind the fighting. Nas had always been pretty physical and after his younger years being pushed around, he'd learned that his height made him intimidating but mastering his strength made him powerful. He told himself that at least he wasn't the one choosing to handle everyday issues that could be solved with a joint by using harder substances, even if he pounding them into someone else's flesh or coming home with his own mottled didn't really help. And though his father suspected what he was doing, even called him on it when his brothers were both sleep and Nas was coming in late, all they could do was agree to disagree when Nas pointed out that his dad - with no real degree and no one else to help him out since both of his parents were in retirement homes (leaving them to keep the family auto business going) - had no leg to stand on. To this day, that set the tone for their relationship, this awkward and distant thing that Nas still wishes he could change, but also understands that it can't just be on him. Which was why Ben had honestly hit him out of nowhere.
Nas had spent so long being the classmate most either said was bad news or were just plain intimidated by that he hadn't really thought anyone caught his interest in the brooding, brilliant boy he had classes with. Of course, he should've known that Amelia Boudreaux would eventually dip her hands into the matter; she'd been meddlesome from day one, inciting Nas' protective instincts when he saw one of the basketball players not trying to take no for answer because he thought a girl like Amelia was supposed to be easy. He hadn't expected her "I owe you one" to mean something, despite finding that some of the same people he found himself enjoying time with happened to be a part of her circle. He hadn't even entertained friendship with the popular girl until she begged him to hang out with her only to send him on a scavenger-hunt-date with Ben after choosing not to show up at all. Nas wants to say she'd been annoying from the start, he does, but considering it led him to marrying his future spouse - he can't exactly say with his chest that he actually is annoyed with her.
Nas had known, going in, that he wouldn't be accepted by every single member of Boudreaux family, but it had spelled disaster to not even get a lick of respect out of either of his in-laws. It didn't help that even his father had said that a marriage into the family only meant trouble for him in the long run, the drunk unable to believe that Nas could keep someone for long. Hell, Nas himself still questioned the permanence of his marriage, though he tried. Nevertheless, between keeping his family's business afloat and seeing his father worsen, Nas' fears were realized when he felt Ben slipping away. He couldn't even summon up the right words, as always, to make him stay. How could he, after all? If he hadn't been enough for his own mother to stay, or even for his father to stay sober, how could he have possibly been enough for someone who could eclipse the sun and deserved every star in the sky? So, he let him go. And has regretted it ever since, even if he's half convinced it was for the best. Though, with the scare that was Ben's recent hospitalization, Nas is wondering if he was wrong about that, too.
Telling their small family that Lani Amasio-Hansen suffered from life-long depression and anxiety, disorders only exacerbated by rounds of post-partum depression, probably would have aided in the kids' understanding of why their mother left them without ever looking back, maybe just a little. Not enough to truly justify her absence, not in Ikenasio's eyes at least, but something would have been better than having all of his happy memories of the woman being overrun by the one of her giving him a tearful goodbye kiss on the forehead and telling him to take care of his little brothers before his dad came home. For the first thirteen years of his life, Nas was a pretty good kid. He had always seemed like the quieter child in comparison to the two rowdy boys who followed him, but his mother always said that he took after her in that aspect. Nas had liked that as a kid, liked that though he took after his father and grew like a weed, mentally he was all her.
Then his mother left and it became very clear to him that he needed to not only be a shoulder for his siblings, and the one person to truly keep them in line because he was the only one equipped to meet them on their level, but for their father as well. He learned then that - despite being an already loving person to his family and putting them before himself anyway - he needed to put aside what he felt for their sake, especially when he realized that the part-time jobs he got after school weren't really cutting it. His dad had to take on two jobs and was exhausted, and with both of his brothers acting out in some way and forcing his already tired dad to parent even more, he needed something. Which was why it was easy for a guy in his neighborhood to get him into underground fighting. Nas had always been told to stay away from that crowd by his mom and had. But with her presence gone, and his family in need, he did what he had to do.
It was easy for some time to pretend he didn't mind the fighting. Nas had always been pretty physical and after his younger years being pushed around, he'd learned that his height made him intimidating but mastering his strength made him powerful. He told himself that at least he wasn't the one choosing to handle everyday issues that could be solved with a joint by using harder substances, even if he pounding them into someone else's flesh or coming home with his own mottled didn't really help. And though his father suspected what he was doing, even called him on it when his brothers were both sleep and Nas was coming in late, all they could do was agree to disagree when Nas pointed out that his dad - with no real degree and no one else to help him out since both of his parents were in retirement homes (leaving them to keep the family auto business going) - had no leg to stand on. To this day, that set the tone for their relationship, this awkward and distant thing that Nas still wishes he could change, but also understands that it can't just be on him. Which was why Ben had honestly hit him out of nowhere.
Nas had spent so long being the classmate most either said was bad news or were just plain intimidated by that he hadn't really thought anyone caught his interest in the brooding, brilliant boy he had classes with. Of course, he should've known that Amelia Boudreaux would eventually dip her hands into the matter; she'd been meddlesome from day one, inciting Nas' protective instincts when he saw one of the basketball players not trying to take no for answer because he thought a girl like Amelia was supposed to be easy. He hadn't expected her "I owe you one" to mean something, despite finding that some of the same people he found himself enjoying time with happened to be a part of her circle. He hadn't even entertained friendship with the popular girl until she begged him to hang out with her only to send him on a scavenger-hunt-date with Ben after choosing not to show up at all. Nas wants to say she'd been annoying from the start, he does, but considering it led him to marrying his future spouse - he can't exactly say with his chest that he actually is annoyed with her.
Nas had known, going in, that he wouldn't be accepted by every single member of Boudreaux family, but it had spelled disaster to not even get a lick of respect out of either of his in-laws. It didn't help that even his father had said that a marriage into the family only meant trouble for him in the long run, the drunk unable to believe that Nas could keep someone for long. Hell, Nas himself still questioned the permanence of his marriage, though he tried. Nevertheless, between keeping his family's business afloat and seeing his father worsen, Nas' fears were realized when he felt Ben slipping away. He couldn't even summon up the right words, as always, to make him stay. How could he, after all? If he hadn't been enough for his own mother to stay, or even for his father to stay sober, how could he have possibly been enough for someone who could eclipse the sun and deserved every star in the sky? So, he let him go. And has regretted it ever since, even if he's half convinced it was for the best. Though, with the scare that was Ben's recent hospitalization, Nas is wondering if he was wrong about that, too.
{"QUOTE". }
A Drop in the Ocean || Ron Pope
A drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven
I don't wanna waste the weekend
If you don't love me pretend
A few more hours then it's time to go
As my train rolls down the east coast I wonder how you keep warm
It's too late to cry
Too broken to move on
And still I can't let you be
Most nights I hardly sleep
Don't take what you don't need from me
It's just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven
Misplaced trust in old friends
Never counting regrets
By the grace of God I do not rest at all
And New England as the leaves change
The last excuse that I'll claim
I was a boy who loved a woman like a little girl
And still I can't let you be
Most nights I hardly sleep
Don't take what you don't need from me
It's just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my...
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore
No, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore
No, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away
Oh, oh
It's just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven
Oh, you are my heaven
A drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven
I don't wanna waste the weekend
If you don't love me pretend
A few more hours then it's time to go
As my train rolls down the east coast I wonder how you keep warm
It's too late to cry
Too broken to move on
And still I can't let you be
Most nights I hardly sleep
Don't take what you don't need from me
It's just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven
Misplaced trust in old friends
Never counting regrets
By the grace of God I do not rest at all
And New England as the leaves change
The last excuse that I'll claim
I was a boy who loved a woman like a little girl
And still I can't let you be
Most nights I hardly sleep
Don't take what you don't need from me
It's just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my...
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore
No, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away
Heaven doesn't seem far away anymore
No, no
Heaven doesn't seem far away
Oh, oh
It's just a drop in the ocean
A change in the weather
I was praying that you and me might end up together
It's like wishing for rain as I stand in the desert
But I'm holding you closer than most 'cause you are my heaven
Oh, you are my heaven
[size=200]{“The heart breaks, but carries on. It can shoulder the most impossible burdens.” }
- Marc Secchia, The Onyx Dragon
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❣Nas had only gotten his first tattoo last year, and it is a depiction of a stylized turtle at the heart surrounded by the ocean, and sharks and spears protecting him. He's gotten it for the Polynesian influences, something to tie him back to his mother since his father had never been particularly traditional himself.❣
❣Despite the fact that he could put it on the market and potentially move back in with his father, at least to alleviate any financial burdens or escape the memories, Nas hasn't found it in himself to not live in the home he and Ben got together.❣
❣Nas had only gotten his first tattoo last year, and it is a depiction of a stylized turtle at the heart surrounded by the ocean, and sharks and spears protecting him. He's gotten it for the Polynesian influences, something to tie him back to his mother since his father had never been particularly traditional himself.❣
❣Despite the fact that he could put it on the market and potentially move back in with his father, at least to alleviate any financial burdens or escape the memories, Nas hasn't found it in himself to not live in the home he and Ben got together.❣
